Did you know that shih-tzu’s are prone to getting cataracts if their eyes are not properly cleaned?  Jay used to clean his dog Toby’s eyes all the time in an attempt to spare him from such a common fate.  Lately I have been feeling like a shih-tzu with cataracts.

Spiritual cataracts.

I pray only until I get distracted. God gives me a glimpse of his heart and I forget what I saw mere minutes later. I get fired up about God’s word but only until I have to sit down to memorize it.  I long for more of Jesus until it costs me something.  I take a step in faith and then turn back in doubt. 

It’s like having cataracts.  Or an eyelash in my eye. I want to see clearly. I want to be focused. I want to have my eyes set on Jesus but I keep having to rub my eyes.  Everything is blurry.  I need glasses. Or surgery. Something. 

Anyone else feel this way? What helps you maintain your focus and clarity?

Michelle